Hey, I just met you, and this is crazy,
But here’s my number, so call me, maybe?
Source: chocolatepistol
Proper speaking
I guess most of us fall into the left category as long as we are Singaporeans. I’m not saying that every Singaporean out there speaks like this. Well, you know you’re guilty! And I’m not saying it isn’t right too. It’s just that whenever I have to talk to someone from overseas with that rattling proper English, I feel that I’m not up to their standard. Therefore, I’ve decided that my goal for short/long term is to brush up my languages! Communication is what keeps you connected yo! Thus I start with our most frequently used mean of communication, texting! I’m super anal about typing proper sentences and words. Yes, that defeats the meaning behind Short Message Service. But hey, that’s just me!
Actually I just wanted something to update so this is uber random! And I would really love to blog about my China trip last December! Procrastination kicks in every time I wanna start on it. I promise that I’ll do it real soon! Ciao!
When times are hard a real friend will listen, & then tell you to shut up, stop bitching, & get your shit straight.
Brunch @ graze with E on my hatch day! (Taken with Instagram at Graze @ Rochester Park)
No excuses for what’s done.
Right now my life is a mess, I make bad decisions. I lose memory of anything that’s done and said. I’m cold-blooded as I was told. I have no drive in me. The fire in me is burnt out and need I go on? I don’t think so. I’m not nice anymore. I was too nice and I sealed up. If I were to use numbers to gauge, I started at 10 and I slowly shifted downwards and unknowingly I’m at 0 right now. I didn’t know how to stop at 5, to be nice to who’s worth it and to be not to who’s not. Actually, all these scares me because I thought I was growing and becoming better, and not turning into someone so horrible.
I struggle everyday to change myself, to reflect on how I should be behaving and to become. I learnt not to argue with people when they tell me what I should be changing on and on whatever flaws I have in me right now. I’m so torn because I can’t be perfect to everyone.
I wanna be always there for my friends be it effort, time or money. I wanna be successful in my career, be there for my clients and meeting new clients which probably will take up most of my time and energy. I wanna be a good daughter and sister, being a homey person. I wanna be firm and confident in my decisions yet I want my decisions to suit me and whoever my decisions are affecting. I wanna give everything I can to people and not be hurt by them taking for granted and not appreciated. I wanna do things without all my internal battles yet I wanna think before I do.
I wanna be myself yet I wanna be the one people wanna be around with.
Is everything possible?
There’s always this nagging voice in me telling me constantly everything that I do can be better and it isn’t right enough.
A wake up call today from them for not doing it good enough. I only came up with a good solution today after tons of self reprimanding. Is it because I didn’t put in enough effort to come up with it or is it purely due to my pea brain?
I’m not sure if anyone understand all these blabbering but I need them to be out.
I can’t break down in front of anyone cuz I’m supposed to be strong. I’m always strong and I’m even stronger now than ever ever since I became cold blooded. Warming myself up means I’ll be vulnerable. But I can do that if that’s what people need and want.
Why can’t I just be like anyone else who’s perfect?
Looks yummy doesn’t it? (Taken with instagram)
Super cute cafe! (Taken with Instagram at Charlie Brown Cafe)
Beautiful….me! Kidding! Beautiful horse! (Taken with instagram)
